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Those closest to me know that I worry way too much about money.  I am the type of person that looks at the price tag of everything that I buy.  I am always very cautious about how much I am spending or the price of certain items, even if I truly need to spend the money.  I have been this way as long as I can remember. 

 

Those closest to me also know that I am a very independent person.  From the time I was little my mom has always taught me that I should be a strong independent woman.  I have taken this piece of advice and ran with it.  I believe that I need to be able to take care of myself and not have to depend on other people.  

 

In moderation, I don’t think either of these are that bad traits to have.  I think that being responsible financially is a really important in life in order to not get spread too thin.  Likewise, it is just as important to be self-sufficient with normal day to day tasks.  However…. I believe that I have taken both of these and ran with them to the fullest extent.  Possibly…almost to a fault.  

 

Keeping both of those things in mind, imagine my inner panic when I found out that I needed to raise $18,700 in order to go on The World Race. 

 

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How was I supposed to come up with that money on my own?

How would I ask people to donate?

Would those around me even be interested in helping me with something like this?

 

For a while at the beginning, I was fairly overwhelmed with all of these questions.  

 

Then one day when talking to my mom she said “if this is where you are supposed to be, then the Lord will provide a way.”  It is incredible how one small phrase could bring so much peach during a time such as this one.  

 

The Lord Provides

 

He provides the connections

He provides the means

He provides the funds

 

The Lord Provides

As I was talking with my amazing advisor the other day I realized just how much the Lord provides.  Sometimes the way He provides is not how we think He should or when we think He should.  But I had two major worries: one about the trip and one in my personal life.  I had voiced these concerns to her in a previous meeting and she asked me how I was doing in these areas.  It wasn’t until I was forced to reflect and answer her questions that I realized just how much He has provided.  In both of these areas He showed up and provided in even greater ways than I could have ever imagined. 

 

 

Throughout this whole process I keep picturing this image in my head of me loosening my grip on my finances and the things that I feel like I can control and opening up my hands and completely surrendering to the Lord.  There truly is no way that I could do any of this on my own power or own strength.  

 

 

 

As this season of life progresses I want to be more intentional with my prayer life.  

 

Prayer Warriors, please pray for my team and I as we travel to training camp in Gainesville, Georgia at the end of the week.  We will be there for about a week undergoing a variety of training sessions and being put in a variety of situations we could possible see while on the field.  

 

How could I be praying for you over the next little while?

 

Please drop your prayer request below or reach out to me if it is something more personal. 

 

 

Again, thank you to everyone who has helped me get to this point on this journey.  It will only get more exciting from here 🙂

 

 

<3 

Kayla 

 

One response to “Panic Button”

  1. Thanks for talking to 1st Presbyterian Church. Your light shines when you talk about your walk with the Lord. Remember you are never alone and the Lord has amazing grace for His children. Marty & I will always lift you and your team in prayer.