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There we were: all of N-Squad scattered about this beach house we were living in while at debrief. Some people standing, others sitting. But all worshipping the Lord regardless. 

As we were worshipping, I was singing the songs and hearing the words but I felt like God had something more for me than just conventional worship. I asked Him to give me a specific person to go pray over or to give a specific word. Worship continued and I sat there, still singing the songs and hearing the words. But this time I was expectant that He would reveal someone to me. Then he gave me a name and I thought “thanks God” and started to take a step but He spoke again and said “wait.”

At this point I thought  “c’mon man, really? I asked for you to give me a specific person, then you did and now you’re saying wait? That doesn’t make any sense.” But even so, I waited. 

One song came and went. Another song came and went. Then one more.

Eventually I started wondering whether or not I really heard His voice, whether or not He had really answered my plea. 

Another song came and went. 

 

Then I heard it:

“Go” 

And I thought “Wait what right now?”

“Yes, go” 

 

As I stood up and started to make my way across the room I was contemplating what I was going to say or pray or do. With each step came more panic. Was it really Him? Should I really do this? 

 

I finally reached her. 

 

In one fluid motion I squatted down, put my hand on her shoulder, and started praying.  I didn’t get past “Dear Lord” before she shot up and threw her arms around me in the strongest embrace I have ever felt.  

It felt like she was holding on for dear life.  As she clung to me, I could feel her body shake ever so slightly; like she was crying but didn’t want anyone to know.  

In that moment, I felt that I was supposed to continue to pray for her.

All of a sudden I was praying for her, but I didn’t feel like the words were coming from me anymore.  How could I be praying such specific things over this sister?  Then it hit me, I’m not the one praying these things over her right now.  

 

As the song came to a close so did my prayer.  

As we dropped the embrace, she looked up and I felt like her eyes were staying straight to my soul.  I asked if she was okay and all she said was “I prayed for someone to come and give me a hug.” 


I don’t tell you this story to glorify myself.  Quite the opposite actually.  I tell you this story to share how incredible our God is; how He wants to use us to partner with Him to further His Kingdom.

 

He used my willingness. 

 

I believe that God is always wanting to use us.  It might not be during a worship set or at church, but literally anywhere.  He uses our yes to bring glory to Him.  

 

God used me to answer someones prayers.  If we give Him space, I believe He will do the same for you.

 

8 responses to “C’mon man, really?”

  1. How awesome that you hear when God talks! Even more, how awesome that you listen!! If only we would always be listening. Some times I admit to getting busy, busy, busy and am afraid I miss his still, small voice. God speaks to is in many ways, through worship, through others he sends to us at that right moment, through his Word. We each just need to always be listening and ready to respond!

    I am so thankful you are listening AND responding!

    Thank you for sharing your testimony!

    You are doing great things through him!

    Love you, sis!

    Mom

  2. Thank you for sharing your testimony.
    Look at how God uses us to be an answer to someone’s prayer.
    The more you listen the more God will speak to you. The more you obey and take s leap of faith in doing what He has asked you? The more He will use you. It takes trust and obedience to be used by God.
    How I pray in the same way that God uses you to be an answer to someone’s prayer. May He use whoever or whatever pleases Him to be an answer to your prayers as well.
    God is with you.
    Praying for you all as often as I can.
    Peace and Grace.

  3. Hello Sweet Kayla! This is so beautiful! Keep listening, keep stepping out, keep praying! The Lord is speaking through you in amazing ways! A hug is always good….can’t wait to get one of those in a few hours in the Dominican. Love you so much Kayla!

  4. Kayla – thank you for affirming what I intellectually know and sometimes, spiritually miss. We just have to be willing. He’s got the words. He’s got the actions. He will equip us to do his work. May blessings pour upon your head. Continuing to pray for you in this mission – so thrilled and grateful to have you as my cousin. XO – Sheila

  5. Dear Kayla,
    Listening is hard! Stepping out of our comfort zone is rough! God is leading you through each step! You are a blessing to all!

  6. YES!! I love your obedience and your willingness to partner with whatever the Father is doing. This is so encouraging!